JACKIE

#failpost

2012-01-28T01:18:00.001+11:00

WOW... so longgggggg never update huh? here gonna fat mou already I think.

I seriously don't know where to start from....$%^&*(#@

Hmmm.. Happy chinese new year everyone!! wish everyone "huat" this year :)

hmmm...hmmmmmmm hmmmmmm.. then... show you some random daily photos.

Acting bak chi =.=

My eye bag is getting serious.ohhh noooooo

and hmm hmm.. iphone case??

and hmm..poo poo??

LOL *roll eyes*

then... acting bak chi again..

Haha i know i know this post is shitty and dull #fail

Nothing much bout my holiday actually.

byebye. Hope my next post will be better.

Happy 2012

2011-12-31T00:13:00.003+11:00

Merry X'mas and Happy new year everyone :)

Happy 2012. Stop thinking about the end of the world.

Appreciate what you have now and stop blaming. There will be no regrets.

All the best.

Xoxo

*I know I macam babi no update. :p

Happy holiday!!

2011-12-03T17:47:00.001+11:00

Hi Malaysia, I'm back!!!

Will blog when I have the time :)

let me enjoy home sweet home feel first.

hooray!!!! Happy holiday everyone!!

女人一生最成功的事情之一

2011-11-16T21:59:00.001+11:00

My roses are withering.. byebye..

Fast fast get a vase and pick the nice one.

Ain't easy to stuck so many roses into this tiny small vase cause the thorns of roses prick very badly,

my fingers are full of pinholes now.

feel like keeping them like that forever :(

想了解一个男人的好坏，先去看他身边是一群怎样的朋友。

一个女人的品位在于她身边站着一个怎样品位的男人。

女人一生最成功的事情之一，便是选了一个对的男人。

我也有伤心心痛的时候，只是伤心难过时，
我比普通人早 0.5秒想通，
早0.5秒微笑，
早0.5秒消气，
早0.5秒忘记不愉快的事。

你自己决定多逞强那0.5秒的尊严面子重不重要
要知道，这0.5秒可以改变很多事，

同一件事，想开了就是天堂，想不开就是地狱。

要快乐起来，其实很简单。心胸宽裕的女生才讨喜。

如果你觉得他不爱你。。

2011-11-16T00:29:00.000+11:00

晒命先

Thank you Darl ♥

Yes sometimes he is very irritating, but he loves me, I know.

I hate him a lot, but I don't know why my heart melts every time when I see him.

He said he hates me too, but he cried for me.

He said I am fat and fugly who needs make up, but I know he always feel proud that I'm his girlfriend.

He always ask me not need to put make up, but I know he wants it.

He doesn't mind I wear slipper never wash my hair, but he wish to see me dress up pretty pretty.

He captures and saves all my ugly sides in his phone. Seriously, if one day "dai gat lei xi' he lost his phone, I will die. ( p.s We r not edison chen's fans, so not that big deal. )

We go through so much together

We fight

We cry

We yell

We stop talking to each other

But we still love each other.

Although sometimes I still hate him a bit.

如果你觉得他不爱你，或者不够爱你，

不是他不爱你，只是他没照着你要的方式爱你。

虽然有时你还是会很讨厌他，可是没有爱，哪来的讨厌。

long leg small waist here i come!

2011-11-03T03:38:00.000+11:00

Guess who's the next top model huh?!

LOL Look at my carrot leg :(

I'm aiming this super long leg and the waist!

sliiirp!! feel like touching her ass and S.L.A.P as hard as I can like What The Fuck!

A small correction here. Let's go back to I love plush toy's post.

~~Bought this plush carrot for me n broccoli for him.~~
He bought the plush carrot for me and broccoli for himself.
( He said that this sentence has problem, cannot be accepted >. > )

If you can't get what I mean, go back to I love plush toy's post. Here.

Anyway guys, you will see me like this in 3 months..

Nah dont say I don't share, here are some motivations for you all. Don't just keep thinking, DO IT!!

OK!! wait for me!!!!!

Photoshooting

2011-11-01T18:13:00.001+11:00

Was busy doing projects for the last few weeks and now finally!!!.... I'm having my break until next year March!

Busy shooting photos for one of my assignments, gonna share some photos which I think they are beautiful :) TeeHee!

I messed up the whole living room like nobody's business with balloons and I took out all my junks which can match the project's theme : Colors!!

My lion and Hello Kitty are actually best friend. I know, they told me about it, every night.

Random shot, nice flowers!

:p face. Spot the bracelet? It's my necklace actually.

I wanna eat this tiny thing! Nom NoM nnoooooooom...

Went p.i.c.n.i.c at Brighton beach with BaoBei Estelle

Yummmmmmmy!! Jealous? Go picnic one day with your family n friends. It's so gonna make your day.

Home made pancake..

Candid shot by Estelle :) I love it!

Was planning to shoot balloons at the beach but the wind was so so strong!
Balloons flied away even we already hold it in our hand.. At first we wanted to decorate our
'own area' with colorful balloons but it turned out we have to let them go in the end..grrr.. Pik cik!

Show off my favourite sandal a little bit.hehe.

Bought a bucket of M&M just for this.

Another :p face with pink nails!

Last one, the most hilarious pose, only from Faye.

Clap clap!!

The end

I love plush toy!

2011-10-16T16:07:00.004+11:00

I eat carrots a lot recently, don't know why just love carrots all of a sudden! especially baby carrots!

Bought this plush carrot for me n broccoli for him.

All I need is only food during this hectic assignment period, to give me energy!!!!

8 more days to go! then I AM FREE!

Wish me luck.

K-POP tickets for SALE

2011-10-10T21:37:00.003+11:00

Hi everyone,

Calling all Australian Soompiers, K-Pop is coming to Australia!

This great star studded lineup will include:

TVXQ, SNSD, SHINee, SISTAR, Secret, miss A, MBLAQ, Kara, CNBLUE, BEAST, 4minute and 2AM

2011 K-POP MUSIC FEST. IN SYDNEY / 12th November at ANZ Stadium

For more information, click HERE.

Is anyone interested?? I'm doing my friend a favor to sell her 2 silver tickets for $270.

This is the seating floor plan, according to my friend, she got the first row of that section!

Click to enlarge

People who get a serious crush on Korean Star, please contact me in Facebook or email me jacki35572@hotmail.com ASAP! Thank you so much :)

No stress no stress and smile =)

2011-10-09T06:29:00.000+11:00

It's 6 in the morning now. been lying on the bed for few hours, close my eyes, force myself to fall asleep, then fuck I don't know why there's a voice "assignments arrrrrrrrr" flash through my head, then heartbeat bop bop bop bop bop bop bop bop ... deng! After that eyes like fullmoon keep staring at the ceiling for hours. Sad thing la it's been few days already.

Everything is so well-planned. But me asshole did not really follow the plan and actually kinda behind the schedule. I don't believe last minute's motivation, because I will be so panic keep saying 'how how how.. sei lor sei lor this time..." and mind goes totally blank, have no idea where to start and which one to do first. And then in the end I will just go "yor! fuck it la! sleep! " but after few hours feel guilty and get up in the middle of the night and come up with trashes.

Yes I'm having extraordinary period but I always have the time to do "extra thing".

Thanks my darling SeeLing always be there for me in Skype every time when I'm having wars with lovely assignments. No talking, she does her own thing I do my own trash :) One more reason I love her because I can act like a extremely bloody princess like super 8 poh and she says no word. Never.

People out there, if you have friends like this, please do not let go them, else you would get struck by lightning HOHOHOHO!

*Yvonne, don't get jealous.*

Anyways, 7am already. Saya mau pergi cuba tido again.
Nights.

last 20 days

2011-10-04T16:22:00.001+11:00

Let's struggle for the last 20 days, and then wooohoooo!!!!!
I can see my 4-months-break is waving at me already.

* Say hi to flower prints *

It's good I started to stay at home for major projects,
But I am gloomy that I can't control my diet anymore. I'm eating every sec, whatever than can put into my mouth I would just suck them in. junk food, instant noodles, peanuts, biscuits,microwave food, dinner twice..... allll over my table, all smiling at me, all begging me to eat them so badly, I can't help to make their dreams come true, I'm just too kind, Oh~ ♩Jackie~ Ohhh ♪♪♬♫

*i know the mirror is dirty :(*

每Po一句♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
陪你颠疯扮傻的朋友就只有那些了，别放手。

十个情侣之间互相欣赏的事情

2011-10-03T20:46:00.003+11:00

十个男朋友瞬间觉得女朋友性感可爱的一面：

1）冲凉后头发还是湿的，身上还发出水果沐浴露的香味。

2）受了委屈回家抱着男友哭的时候。

3）穿着平日不常穿的打扮。

4）即使平时不爱下厨，但还是努力为了男朋友下厨，结果搞得一团糟。

5）眼泪在眼眶里打滚时候。

6）害羞时双颊泛红。

7）为了融入男朋友的生活，半夜特地陪着一起看足球赛，结果上半场还没结束又倒头睡着了。

8）为朋友打抱不平，大大声比手画脚讲义气的时候。

9）在外逛了一整天，晚上回家一个一个战利品展示给男朋友看，还告诉他这有多难买，那有多实用，虽然不到一半的东西是多来买的。

10）做错事的时候，低头不敢讲话拉着男朋友的衣角求原谅。

十个女朋友瞬间觉得男朋友性感可爱的一面：

洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
洗碗的时候
“宝贝，吃完了碗放着就好，我来洗。”

lalalalalalalalalalala ♪♫♩☀♬♥

Screw those who don't appreciate you.

2011-10-01T00:33:00.003+10:00

One day if someone who is important to you, take you for granted, you get so pissed and please tell him this...

不要以为你是V.I.P，你也不是I.P，你只不过是一粒P（屁）

Seriously, you will feel so much better after saying that. Go try! But do not blame me if anything happen.. Peace!

Good Friday night everyone and wish you have a Happy Saturday.

loves,
Jackie

每Po一句♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
你是不是总是会为了某人而不断地修改自己的底线？
不停地为某人找借口，不停地想去原谅？

2011-09-28T18:05:00.003+10:00

9月28日
倾盆大雨雷电交加

心情莫名低落

准备迎接大姨妈

就这样。

告诉自己明天会更好。

2 monkeys up-side-down-ed my house.

2011-09-16T22:46:00.001+10:00

I miss them.

♥ Although they made a mess of my room, the toilet the living room, basically the whole house la, but I feel so empty after u guys left. No more underwear hanging here and there, no more bra on the floor on the bed and inside the blanket.. *faint*

♥ I miss that super hilarious dramatically Friday night with them.
We didn't really have fun tho', but fucking dramatic scenes are
more than enough for me to kill them already.

♥ I miss Yvonne shopping with me, miss Apple helping to share ma burdens.

♥ I miss the moment when Yvonne stupidly wanted to help washing dishes
and she didn't know we always need to secretly re-check the dishes
cause always got soup bubble left on almost everything.

♥ I miss the moment when Apple was trying to clean my table over and over again.
It took really long time tho' like the time when she finish cleaning,
Yvonne can already finish washing one week dishes.
(I believe this is why soup bubbles exist)

♥ No one cries out loud the bed is crowded and insist to kick me out anymore.
♥ No one praise my so-so cooking skill.
♥ No one I can talk to whenever I want to talk shit.
uggg!! many many many more I can't finish listing them out!!

Don't just fucking leave me like that!! I felt better before you guys came.

COME BACK!!!!

sob sob :(

Back to blogging life?

2011-09-16T01:24:00.002+10:00

Say bye-bye to my gold fishie's hair color.
Yes I'd dyed it darker already.
I bleach and dye my hair constantly like how guys need to cut their hair once a month.
Superb x100000 dry hair I got, one of the reason why I chopped it short,
else I will become bald soon. What a sad thing.

I discovered one true fact of me, I love talking to myself, anytime.
Ask myself question, murmur myself then laugh out loud myself.
I thought this is very normal like self-entertained, until my boyfriend told me he is scared sometimes, and said this is some kind of harbinger of mental problem.

Don't you reckon it's a quite entertaining thing to do when you're alone?
LOL

One day, when I really ci jor sin, the first thing I will do is post it up here and let you guys know! don't worry!

Anyway, am I really coming back to blogging life? hmm I'm not too sure.
Let me think about it first.

off to zzZZZZzzzz.. nights ♥♥

Photos speak my feeling about ma hair. ♫

2011-09-06T22:42:00.000+10:00

Seriously, I become very lazy to blog, but I don't know why I m still blogging...
feel really bad to abandon this site.

I promised to blog about my short hair.

All above are none of my business anymore, that is why I feel quite sad about my hair.
Is this post short enough?

Hope you all could get my point LOL good luck! ♥

为你拍照的男人

2011-08-10T22:07:00.001+10:00

刚刚看到的一篇文章，有点感触。

确实，一个会拿着相机，在镜头之后细心的捕捉你的一切的男人，该是多么的爱你

一起出游时，忘记了看风景，却拿着相机拍下你的一颦一笑。因为，在他心里，再美的风景也比不上此刻他心中的你，你就是他心中最美的风景

躲在镜头之后，拍下不经意发愣的你，走神的你，淘气的你，微笑的你。漂亮的你，可爱的你，做鬼脸的你。然后，当你不在他身边时，他会一个人看着这些照片傻傻的笑，慢慢想着你们在一起的点滴，回味着

不需要你刻意的摆pose，更不需要你精心准备在镜头前的一面，你最美的一刻总会被他记录下，不会遗失

当有人看到这些照片，他会微笑的告诉人家，这照片中的故事。或是，你们一同出行的某个地点，或是她因为你讲的某个故事而大笑不已。

他不会计较你最近是不是胖了，不上像了。你肚子上的游泳圈，你不够直的小胖腿，你不够细腻的皮肤，从来不会成为他打击的对象。他不会让你去减肥，不会挑剔你说话声音大，不够优雅。他把你介绍给他身边的每一个人，告诉他曾经的现在的朋友们，这个虽然不够漂亮不够可爱的女孩，是我媳妇儿～～

女生要的，真的是你能给她的实实在在的感动。

Essay kills me

2011-07-24T01:49:00.000+10:00

Come say hi to boyboy..

I can't believe I'm writing a 500 words essay.
Yes I know it's only 500 words, I shouldn't complain so much but you don't understand..!

The last piece of essay I wrote was like SPM's English paper. Nah, Blog doesn't count, even my blog post doesn't reach 500 words right? Blogging and writing an essay are so diff because proper essay can't insert any of my camwhore photos or even me-and-ma-friends-say-cheese-in-front-of-the food-photo (many girls doing that these days) And the worst thing is I can't help adding a "LOL" or "hahaha" behind my sentence. sei mou you say??????

I gasp when people tell me "sigh how??? I still have 7000 thousands words to go for my 10000 words essay!!! "

"harrrrr???? walao weh, luckily I do not need to write stupid essay in my design course."

I eyes turned into gold fish when I heard 500 words essay,
and I know more-words-essay coming.
I want to die

Next post - I am not that happy with my new hair :(

Sayonara my dry grassy hair

2011-06-27T19:30:00.004+10:00

Bye-bye long hair
Tata ~ 3 years with the hair extension.
Hope not to see you again in my life, moi dry grass hair.

One shot ♥

Honestly, I was really nervous .

" Fuck, this time really gone already,
no rewind?????? MAMA! "

No eyes see

Some said it suits me some said no.
Mummy likes it, daddy doesn't like it.
Brother and sister still couldn't accept the fact that I'm now look like a boy.
Someone said no more princess feel.
Someone called me 花家姐.
Someone fully supported me.
Someone couldn't recognize me even I was already standing in front of her.
Most of ma friends didn't give any comment about it,
they just asked,

" You got stimulated by what??"

"ohh no la, just butt itchy."

Someone said he likes it very much no matter I turn into whatever shit.

I wanted to cut my hair like this long time ago, haha but sorry I'd got no guts.
and now ♥ finally =)

The next morning when I just woke up, I found a super huge cabbage on my head.
I looked at the mirror and "fark! where is ma wax and spray!!!!! "

p/s Someone is coming back from far far away =) I miss her! YEAH!!

shuffle

2011-06-23T19:30:00.001+10:00

Everyday.I.Am.Shuffling

shuffling at home
shuffling here and there
shuffling in the club
shuffling shuffling shuffling shuffling

I SHUFFLE
cause I'm lazy to walk properly.

Obviously, this is a pointless post.
deng! I'm just too bored.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

PhotoPost

2011-06-22T16:00:00.001+10:00

blah blah blah
I don't wanna talk.
Just some mobile uploads n outings photos here.

r.a.n.d.o.m

♥ Seeling ♥

♥ camwhore ♥

♥ My favourite ice cream ♥

♥ My hair is like super dry grass now ♥

♥ The latest headset ♥

♥ Stock up my contact lenses ♥

♥ Dim sum ♥

♥ Nelson's house warming ♥

♥ Gosh ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

A note for my 2 little friend

2011-06-15T12:25:00.003+10:00

Yeah! off to cyberjaya, LimKokWing University!

Mr. Wall & Mrs. Stairs,

I'm sorry I won't be seeing you two today as I finally have a real plan. Hope you guys enjoy today and it was sweet of you both for being there for me last few days. I appreciate it so muchie ♥ ♥. So.. see you !! Don't cry, promise me?

From:
Wall Talker
Stairsteps Counter

I talk to the wall.

2011-06-14T15:15:00.000+10:00

Hi everyone Good Morning!!

Today........ Is A New Day.♪♫♬

Okay.. let's see what's my plan for today!

Go downstairs - get some food.

Come upstairs - look for something (will figure it out later)

Go downstairs - for awhile ( hopefully can last for 15 mins)

Come upstairs - to get something.

Go downstairs.... just to come upstairs.

Come upstairs.... just to$%*#@&*##$%&*+%$#@

Whoa!! Brilliant!!!!

I'm going to watch Super 8 today I don't care I'm alone-the-movie-is-thrilled-oh-no-so-ke-lian-alone~~~~ or what so ever....

I feel like eating bak kut teh again... anyone??

Oh hmm... never mind. I can go myself.

☀ ☂ ☃ ☁

Oh yea! My wall (new friend) is waiting for me. I should go talk to him/her now.
He/She doesn't answer me and I still talk to them.

It's a guy, I suppose.

"Hey Mr. Wall? have you eaten?? I'm going to, want me to get you some? alright see you in 10 mins then :)"

O M G!!

Don't fight!!

2011-06-13T19:00:00.001+10:00

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
♥ ♥ PhotoBooth session again ♥ ♥

And then, I don't know why things started go wrong.

They tried to block my shots, especially my stupid brother.

But all the photos look like I'm trying to block them.

That's why I say DON'T FIGHT!

SEE HOW I LOOK LIKE NOW!

My lovely Saturday plan

2011-06-11T17:02:00.004+10:00

Hi everyone Happy Saturday?

Anyways Good Morning, yes I just woke up not long ago.

I had everything all planned today. It's... err..ahem.. lovely.

Now I have to go take my shower first, oh no, go downstairs eat some junks first would be better, it might take me 10 mins.

Come upstairs, count stair steps, it could take me 5 mins.

Roll my bed 10 mins.

Go to my sister's room for 15 mins.

Next my brother's room for 10 mins.

Come back to my room again, reconsider about my shower plan. oh cool this might struggle me 15 mins.

Seriously I have plans.
But I'm still so bored I wanna die!

*I don't know why my nose looks crooked here*

Oh yes! I tried to communicate with my stupid PooPoo the poodle with human language. To be honest I can never ever make it. PooPoo would just turn his ass to my face and walk away like he is always forever happy ever after, after I tried so hard to convince myself to have a heart-to-heart with him.

I really jealous those people who have a understanding pet. It always happens in the movie, just don't get it why my PooPoo can be so cruel.

Alright I gotta go now and come up with more plans.

Did I mention that I continuously open-close-open-close the refrigerator's door for God-I-think-many-times. Seriously mom i can explain this. See, I haven't switched my winter mood yet.... and.. it was on my plan list and took me 15 mins MAN!

Mom
Air Pollution Prevention Association

♥ Don't screw me please ♥

I'm back.

2011-06-10T21:04:00.002+10:00

Yes I'm back
Yes I'm now in Malaysia
Yes I will be here for 1 month.

and wait..

ALL OF YOU are having exam or having assignments, no one has time for me.

I am sooooo sad.

Anyways, I miss you Mr. Act Cute.

2011-06-01T01:33:00.002+10:00

Hello Malaysia?????? Wait for my surprise :)

I guess I'm gonna miss this bird bird.

2011-06-01T01:15:00.001+10:00

I've been listening to this song over and over again.

cute right?

Is this considered an update?

an After-so-long-update

2011-05-23T02:35:00.002+10:00

Hi.
I am back. Again.

:)
I'm confused.
I'm afraid of something.
I pray hard.
Good luck to myself.

Anyway.....

Just got back from Pirates of the Caribbean IV at Crown's Village Cinema. To be honest, after watching all of the Pirates' series all these years, besides the background musics are really great, I seriously have no idea what it's about. I can only focus when they are fighting over something or escaping, other than that like their talking part, I can never never never never ever concentrate because I always easily get distracted by a very simple background object.

Example:

"eei?? she wasn't wearing that blouse just before. oops they made mistake...pfft!"

"I'm sure my room is definitely cleaner than their ship man!"

Lastly, my comment about Pirates' series is the soundtracks ♪♫♩♬ are good!!

AND
AND
AND
AND!!!

I want to tell you guys I put this trust-me-it's-really-huge-worm into my mouth
and
I
bite.

I was like yi? why is this longan taste so weird?
After I saw how fat it is. I went @.@ and said "ohhhh...errr... it... is...... big..."

"faster go wash your mouth la stupid." ♥ ♥ ♥

Do you guys miss Faye, another idiot?

Oh hmm she is still the same. still so idiot. LOL

byebye.

2011-05-17T14:44:00.003+10:00

是没时间好好坐下来blog？
还是自己懒？

你让我好好反省，下次再上来告诉你。
我想应该不会这么快，我一个礼拜都没碰一次电脑。

呃，再看吧，看老娘心情。

白白。

2011-03-22T03:02:00.001+11:00

我很忙！！

亲爱的行李

2011-02-25T14:40:00.000+11:00

不管我是从Melbourne回来，或者是从马来西亚回Melbourne，收拾行李这个问题一直困扰着我。不懂要如何下手收拾，担心东西塞不进，而且时常要割爱，把一些自己喜欢的东西留在这里，带不过去。

我的房间现在乱得不懂像什么一样。。。

王朕豪，回来帮我把东西拿过去，谢谢。

在墨尔本收东西的时候，也是一样的情，而且还更乱更糟糕。

p/s 希望顺心顺意

2011-02-22T23:47:00.003+11:00

我妈妈说我发底裤瘟。。是。。内裤我是买很多，可是妈，我讲了很多次，

underwear is basic human right....
我需要它们。。。

虽然我听过有人说不穿很凉爽。。。。

妈，我买很多来穿，好过我不穿，Melbourne 的天气已经很凉爽了。

My dear hair...

2011-02-22T15:10:00.005+11:00

YES I DYED MY HAIR BLACK!!
Daddy said I look exactly like a form 4 form 5 girl... lol

My hair needs lotsa hair treatments as it's super damage now. I dyed 3 diff extreme colours in half a year.
I owe my hair an apology.

July 2010
It was mixture of purple, orange and red , I called myself 孙悟空, the monkey king.

November 2010
I had it enough and thought of changing to a darker color.

January 2011
I didn't do anything to my hair, but it automatically changed to Gold Brown

Feb 2011
"I want darker" I said this to the hair stylist.
Ta-da, it becomes black =.= sumore it's very black, shiny black.

If the fringe and the spectacle go with the high school uniform, no one would ever doubt that I've actually walked into a wrong gate. *plus my height*

Next Month
Maybe....maybe I will become like this..

HOHOHO.. stay tune!

Or maybe this...

I would only tan my body at that time, not my face, just to get this effect. LMFAO!!

中国情人节快乐

2011-02-17T12:30:00.001+11:00

我又祝大家情人节快乐！今天是元宵，也是♥中国情人节♥
我不收花，不要巧克力，更不要带我出去吃情人套餐。
中国情人节，就别再和西洋人的故技混在一起，

所以。。。。。。谁要很浪漫地和我一起去猜灯谜？

谁要送我年糕代替巧克力？

算了，我看也没有几个人知道今天是中国情人节。

Confession after Valentines day

2011-02-15T17:15:00.005+11:00

You know why I do think that I've got huge sense of environmental protection.....

I'm a good influence on people...

People drawing me flower on Valentines day rather than spending triple to get a real one.

HOHOHOHO

Do not spend on thing which is tripled and it withers in a week time.
Spend time on things which can last forever.

♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥ ♡ ♥

I received 'flowers' after I blogged about the previous post. They are cute :)

My bro was the one with much sincerity at first. He drew me a flower in Paint. I definitely incredibly truly thought it's a very nice flower, simple and nice, at least.

My sis saw and wasn't reconciled and spent for like 1 hour in Paint, then Power Point, then spent 15 mins on finding 'Print Screen' button just because she forgot she actually doesn't know how to convert a Power Point file into JPEG image.

Then someone saw all these comedies and drew me another rose.

Pity my bro, his flower was compared to the other two drawings, everyone commented and complained my bro's flower is the smallest, and kept laughing how cacat his flower is.

This is the actual size of the paper and the flower.

errrrrr ....it's really.... very small.

But it's okay, I don't mind bro, I believe that you can draw a better flower in the future.
HA HA HA
Keep it up!! HA HA HA
Good work BRO! HA HA HA
*this is how good people encourage the youth*

Thank you Brother.

♥

My sister's work is good, is just that..... hmm... nah I will like to point up that for a 13 years old girl, it's a very good piece of work.
hmm not really a big deal, just that she grabbed photos in Google with secure copyright thingy. LOL I am not trying to be mean, it's really cute, leastways it made me smile...

Thank you my cute little sista. It's awesome and better than gorgor's one.
And remember where the PrintScreen button is okay?? LOL

♥ ♥

And also, thanks for the rose someone. OH! You weren't here with me yesterday, doesn't mean you don't need to make up for it.

I say thank you first.

Happy Valentine's day

2011-02-14T18:40:00.003+11:00

Peeps, flowers out there are T-R-I-P-L-E today. And guys, if you still do not have a plan yet please be quick cause all the restaurants are fully booked and tell you hor~~ all you can eat is only those set dinner which is already fixed. That's so not good right? Sumore sumore today's traffic is so freaking jam, stay at home laaaaaa, save petrol arrrrr.

I think differently. In fact, I am clever HOHOHOHOHO

I am helping all the guys to save money for not buying me any flowers and please don't bring me out for any set dinner which does not have my favourite meal in the set. One thing, it is going to be very very very pack in every restaurant tonight. Think wise la okay... don't waste this kind of money to make yourself grumble, right? right? righttttttttt?
Further-further-further-furthermore, I have to pretend like there's no one else in the restaurant so me and my partner can do our sweet talking and keep blinking eyes at each other, which is not good because the next table is only 5cm away from ours. To be honest, that is very not romantic, we call it "very potong steam"

Hehehehehehe I am so sour grapes right?

Mom has dad's flowers!
EVEN my bro and sis were showing off
to me about their... *censored*..... *my parents read my blog*

♥ ♥ ♥ Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!! =) ♥ ♥ ♥
Who say I don't have valentine... ?? Who say I don't celebrate valentines day?
Is just that I choose not to go out today, which is very smart =p

2011-02-12T19:00:00.001+11:00

I don't know how I sleep these days.
Everyday different pattern, neck twisted today, 180 degree up side down yesterday,
or squeezed my ear too hard on I-don't-remember-which-day AND

EVERYDAY different categories of dreams.
Stupid dreams give me puffy eyes and pimples. BODOH

I've got nothing to update, only have few photos on my desktop.
*Picha time*

Nah Yvonne Khoh, your favourite session. :)

YOR DAMN WHERE IS YVONNE KHOH??!???
nah here's a very very rough photoshop-ed-our-first-pic-together-after-so-long.
Happy chinese new year at London k?

Don't worry about your angpau, I will keep and spend for you.

I miss you like hell :'(

Yes I'm too bored so I go back to Pet Society.
It's kinda boring to me now but no choice la, it kills time.

2011-01-31T19:10:00.000+11:00

Seremban's traffic is SO TERRIBLE!!!!!!!
I RATHER COMMIT SUICIDE!!

Say hi to my family :)

2011-01-20T23:30:00.000+11:00

一路来都没有好好照顾自己，回来马来西亚后，皮肤就变得很糟糕。

从墨尔本回来多久，就被人“弹”几久。。。

鸳鸯眼（一只眼大，一只眼小）

♫♪♫♩♪♬♪♫♩♩♬

最近，我要谢谢我的私人司机。
载上载下，载进载出。

我记得，我好像还有很多post还没有post上来。
我记得。。。
我记得。。。。

应该会记得。。。。。

2011-01-16T14:41:00.002+11:00

Yeah!!!
HAPPY HOLIDAY!!

Ok. Bye.
Honestly, I don't know why I open this post.
byebye.

1st random after I got back

2011-01-13T02:30:00.000+11:00

Seriously, I wasn't digging it. I just put my finger next to my nose.
Chill laa~ it's just a pose.
A very weird one. Some people think it's cute, some people think it's sampat.

But, it looks real hor??? HAHAHA

外婆：”你矮了。。。“
“阿婆～是肥了。。。”

“哟～好像是～～～～”

我妈：“什么好像？简直肥到好像一只猪。”

clap clap!!!!

Check list
1) Bak Kut Teh - Checked
2)Pork Leg - Checked
3)Street 大炒 - Checked

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I miss Faye...

break!!!!

2011-01-11T19:57:00.004+11:00

Hi Malaysia!
Thanks someone so that I can come back "ON TIME"
Finally I can have a break after so long......
I really need some rest.

Come, shout with me!!
YAY!!!!!!!!

I miss Melbourne tho'.
miss my poker gang.

So far, the only thing I heard from everyone is

"Yor!! zomok ni jiang fei liao de????? fei por!!!!!!!!!!!"

“是啊～～怎样？？？？？”

yeah! It's 2011!! lame title I know

2011-01-02T06:40:00.000+11:00

Sorry I just can't think of a good title at the moment, it's fucking 6.30 in the morning.

Did I ever say I will blog about my Sydney's trip??

LOL I think so.
Sorry laaaa I've been really really busy these days.
She is Erica. One of my friend, Family friend. :)

Moving out from my apartment is another huge headache this month.
Looking at my stuffs make me panic man! I really have no idea how am
I gonna pack all my shits into boxes.
urgh! that is because I always get stuffs from the box which I've already packed!!

*fuck who knows I will need it after I packed? Okay maybe I can choose not to use
them but just because they are in the box and that actually makes my heart damn itchy*

And then I messed up everything in the end and found nothing and fuck yeah! I have to pack
all over again. Seriously, I pity the one who do the packing with me.

And the worst is I still don't have a place to stay next year, just pray I won't be homeless for my own sake.
I pray I pray I pray I pray I pray I pray .......
@@#$#%^%&*$!

I wish to show you how my precious room looks like now but seriously,
trust me.
You wouldn't want to.

Thanks and see you.

Oh yea. Merry X'mas and Happy new year.
I was working during new year eve night but luckily not that bad afterall.
Because I got the chance to sneak out for fireworks.

It was...........

not really awesome.

Hi, 2011...

2010, I don't wish to see you again.

早晚不同人格

2010-12-07T18:30:00.003+11:00

早上，我在city一家服饰店上班。

上班的时候，我们必须穿的漂漂亮亮，化妆，假睫毛，高跟鞋跑不掉。

在那里，无聊起来的时候，几个小时内可以把一本小说读完。

我们说话要有亲和力，温柔，时常面带笑容，和顾客聊几句八卦是必须的。

遇见的客人都是打扮得漂漂亮亮的女生。

偶尔受一受一些漂亮千金大小姐的脾气少不了。

晚上，我在Melbourne Crown Casino 的 food court 上班。

在那里，忙起来的时候真的很像世界第三大战。

一些无理取闹的客人，我们就听不见，看不见，直接就 next waiting！！

在food court 里，我们都没有 [放]这动词，我们只有[抛]，[扔]。

除了在客人面前，我们用脚多过手。

在CROWN food court遇见的客人，不是输了钱找架吵的大婶，就是24小时呆在赌场不回家的老人家，要不就是三更半夜的时候，会有一群群喝醉酒的年轻人。

在这里，没有受委屈可言，因为我们直接开骂。

两个工作性质差别大得让我觉得以后很可能会有人格分裂症。

yii-haa!!!

2010-12-06T00:04:00.000+11:00

Just came back from Sydney. Give me some time to arrange those photos and I will definitely upload them..

as soon as I could..

Sorry la.. don't need to work ARRR???!??

Eh eh...
对不起是一种真诚，没关系是一种风度；如果你付出了真诚，却得不到风度，那只能说明对方的无知与粗俗。

我真的无所谓。

I'm on vacation!!!!

2010-12-01T05:21:00.000+11:00

My new hair colour.

Saying hi to Sydney in few hours time :)
Finally.......

Bye, Faye.
See you 3 months later :)
MUAH!!!!!!!!!
so gonna miss you............

Who is Bee-an-kar?

2010-11-29T02:00:00.000+11:00

Finally finally I have the time to stick my butt on the chair in the room for more than half and hour to blog something here.

I earn like hell

and of course I spend like crazy!

I've realized that small little boys loves flowers a lot, not the girls.

They loves those who have flowers on the head, trust me. They would keep staring and blinking at you, and still standing at the same spot like a pillar no matter how the mothers pull them away. It's hilariously funny when they give me the want-to-look-at-you-but-I-am-shy!!!-look

Oohh!! here's something..... for some people.
Who is Bianka?? Bee-an-Ka?? or Bie-arn-car??

Can anyone please let me know the exact spelling of the name before blaming me SHITS.

It made me go URGH!!!!

2010-11-18T00:00:00.000+11:00

It can be really frustrating to step into a fast food restaurant when you're having super headache on assignment....................

Here we go........

"Hey how you doing? Chicken roll please, thanks!"

" Hey!! With the meal or just the roll?"
"with the meal, thanks."

"large or small"
"large"

"what drinks do you like?
"hmmmm...coke.."

"oops..sorry we don't have coke at the moment, how about orange juice?
" =.=|| errrrr... yeap sure!"

" Ice??"
"......... yes.."

"Do you want cheese on top?"
"hmmm..nope thank you.."

"Any sauce?"
"errrrrrrr... nope."

"Anything else?"
"No"

"Pay extra 1 dollar and you can get 2 apple pies together with the meal.."
"No thanks."

"Having here or take away..."
"................ puuuhh! having here...."

" It's $10.20 thank you!"

*Pass $11 to the cashier*

"Sorry, do you have 20 cents?
"......................
.
.
.
.
.
....
....
...
.
.
.
..
=.=|||

NO.............

IM BACK IM BACK IM BACK!!!

2010-11-12T01:12:00.000+11:00

I'm back!!!!

Sorry that I've been MIA for soooo long..
been working more than 13 hours a day continuously, my life now is nothing like I expected.
2 jobs a day, assignments, childish people's dramas, money issues, seriously I can feel myself gonna stop breathing anytime soon.

Everyone keeps asking me the same question over and over again...

"what's wrong with you??? Do you really need money that much??? seriously why the hell do you need to torture yourself like this?"

"I...... don't know. Just want to..... gain more experience...."

From dad...
"Are you.......very very poor? So... your dad ain't giving you money? You..... need to pay your own rental? Is that why???? Go quit your job please......."

"errrrrrrrrrr................. aiyaaa.... (create brilliant excuses)"

OK here I am to let you guys know that... I've learnt fucking hell lotsa thing, totally no regrets for doing all this. Yes life maybe a little bit tougher but whose life is easy anyway???

Free-and-easy-life is only for walking corpse, come on!

Congrates me :)

So-called sleepover

2010-10-29T01:50:00.000+11:00

So.... Faye decided to come over my place and both of us do assignment together.

Rules No1 "Okay, this time we have to stop all the nonsense..."
Rules No2 "eh.. serious ....serious...."
Rules No3 Do not waste any second

First half an hour, we were really serious on assignment..

Then, something started to go wrong next hour.

Then.....

And this.....

Then,

Me: "Eh!!! don't like that lerrrrr... if you wanna play, play together la!!!"

Then she got distracted by IPhone's gamesssssssss.

Then I was like...."errrrrrrrrr... nothing to do.. then I............."

Come Faye, let's call it a day, sleep!!
"SAY CHEEEEEZE......" chik chak!!

Good night.
What a great sleepover ♥ ♥ ♥

see how cute they are.

2010-10-27T17:56:00.004+11:00

can be so cute????!???

I want one!!!!

I'm still working hard on my final project. Wish me luck everyone.
one more week to go..!! JUST ONE MORE WEEK!!! WAIT FOR ME!!

BYEBYE

2010-10-16T02:47:00.004+11:00

bu yao KACAU wo ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

bu yao childish ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

I don't reply you say I 身有屎
I reply you sayI LANSI..

NO DRAMA NO GAME!!

BU YAO KACAU WO AR DENG!!!

yeah! I ma heart breaker!

2010-10-14T20:19:00.001+11:00

来来。。有笑话听。

有个姑娘说我是heart breaker第一名，她说她输了。
哟！怎么办？
我说姐啊，这么凄凉哦？输了哦？＊翻白眼＊

既然我是第一名，那就小小声讲，不要唱通街。

小妹赠你一句，不要假装你很玩得起，男人不会因此而爱上你。
傻姐。

很奇怪，我最近都闭关在学校，什么时候当了heart breaker 的冠军？

我很忙
懒得理你。

这家伙被我逼来学校做作业，做了一小时，闹了四小时。

走上走下

走进走出

爬高爬低

。
。
。
。

不要说没有！！

上班打工三份
final 作业几份
我说我行！

谁谁谁不要惹是生非
我知道你有这种闲情可是我很忙真的没有时间鸟你你好自为之

2010-09-29T13:09:00.002+10:00

*Ma, the bag is clean now.

Went Melbourne Show with Faye yesterday. I really wish to blog about it right now, but something more important is waiting for me.

see you guys soon!

需要人陪

2010-09-25T08:18:00.003+10:00

I just love this song as it always puts me to bed successfully .. :)

nahhh~~~ don't blah arr..
I really think it's a really nice piece...

Some facts....

2010-09-24T16:47:00.000+10:00

Finally, I see 20 on the weather forecast. woohooooo!!!

1. I hate the way people google me from the leg to the face, and back to the leg, then stop at my boobs. Excuse me Xiao Jie, I know it's normal for you this kinda kepoh to examine people but please, next time don't show it out so obvious.

2. Okay, I gave up my-one-day-2-meals-plan as its real fucking hard.

3. I'm always buoyed by the atmosphere of the shops with the super loud trance music, Chio Bu (pretty girls) everywhere. Plus, the way I carry my overload of shopping bags, walao seriously make me feel like I'm one of 'em in the movie. fuuhh!

yes bimbo I know.

Okay okay Nevermind, let's not stress about it, I will just chill out in some other way.

Anyway, Happy Mooncake Festival!! LOL

I am who I am... eww!

2010-09-22T17:00:00.000+10:00

奇怪，很多人很喜欢把 “我就是我。。。我是怎样就是怎样。。。”挂在嘴巴上，无时无刻都在重复。说得似乎自己不需要任何人的认同，自己喜欢怎样就怎样，说什么原则，说什么有性格。

我高中的时候，也有这样的想法。可是现在完全不再讲了。
因为，如果你真的不介意别人的想法，你连那个口头禅也可以免掉。

“我就这样的。。。我就是我。。。还是那个我。。。。”

哇靠。。显～

很俗，别再重复了。我知道你们很鸟样，很有性格。
那，我就给你们一句：“哇～很帅！我为你鼓掌，ok了吗？”

我就是我～我就是喜欢自拍，不喜欢你们可以不要看，我就这样！！
显！

Just another random video

2010-09-21T16:15:00.001+10:00

FYI, I wasn't ready for that video, it was just an accidental coincidence..so hmm just push the boat along the current. Laugh Out Loud...

I'd combined few shits together last night from my photobooth. It's a really useful application.
The video is kinda WTF tho'
..
..
..

There you go.. LOL

Don't forget to clap :)

OWH! BTW, this is Yvonne.

2010-09-20T20:50:00.000+10:00

Miss me not??

Was trying to act cute... blablablahhh~~~

boooo!!!!
Melbourne show tomorrow..YEAH!!!

A video for my cousin, Yvonne.
Quite idiotic in the end, but arrrr...fuck it.

2010-09-17T17:44:00.001+10:00

爱
得
越
深，

推

得

越

远。

2010-09-12T22:27:00.002+10:00

I am busy.
I am very busy.
I am freaking busy.

but, I will be very free, soon. :)

Cheers!

有一种缘，放手后成为风景

2010-09-11T17:00:00.002+10:00

XXX：

放不下，是因为你活在记忆里。你看到你和他的未来吗？既然没有未来，就放手吧。

当我知道你说过这么一句话，“没关系啊，我和他还是可以在一起啊。。”
那一瞬间，你已经成为爱情的乞丐。。。

我知道站在痛苦之外规劝收苦，是一件很容易的事。
我真的很不忍心看到这样的你。。
坚强点吧！

失恋，谁没有过。。。。。。。。

“你以为不可失去的人，最终还是离开了。你流干了眼泪，或许有另一个人逗你欢笑。错过花，你将收获雨，错过雨，你会遇到彩虹；收拾起心情，继续走吧”

“没有人陪你走一辈子，所以你要适应孤独，没有人会帮你一辈子，所以你要奋斗一生”

好好想一想。。
失恋而已。没有说没有谁就活不下去。
我有个朋友，也有一个好了很多年的男朋友。有一天，男朋友车祸去世了，就发生在女生生日当天。男朋友就在送礼物的路上发生了意外。

因为这件事，我失恋的时候，都告诉自己，“只要他还在世界另一边活着，那就够了。”

站起来！前面还有好多难题等着你。这只是一小部分，要哭就尽情地哭。
要记得，当眼泪流尽的时候，剩下的就该是坚强了。
要记得，现在的分手是是暂时的泪滴，而非痛苦的延续。

机场是个什么地方。。

2010-09-09T04:00:00.000+10:00

给所有出国读书的朋友们：

很久之前曾经有一个朋友问我，汇集眼泪最多的地方是哪里
我说是医院
他说医院算什么，真正可怕的是机场

他说的时候一直抬头看着蓝天
直到很多年以后的今天，我以同样的姿势眺望天空的时候才发现
当初他仰起头的时候只是为了看一眼漂洋过海的那个人

我飞墨尔本的那一天，他没有送我
安检的时候我四处张望，也没有他的身影
我知道他不会来但还是希望看见奇迹

在家人面前很淡定，
没想到过安检的一瞬间还是哭了

然后听见身后的妈妈哭了
他想拉住我，只是一道小小的栏杆
我们已经是两个国度的人了

我始终都没有回头
因为怕自己再也不会走进来了

第二道关卡的时候看到两个安检员
我故意把头低低的不想把自己弄的太狼狈
他们只是微笑着告诉我入口
我想

分别得场面见的太多了吧

“我在澳洲读书的时候认识一个朋友叫LEO。

有一天晚上聚会大家都喝了很多
然后这个平时很少说话的男生给我们讲了他的故事

他说他是在安检处和女朋友分的手
俩人约好了到那里在分手
但是没有一个人愿意先开口

最后起飞的时间到了
他女朋友就哭了然后对他说：你走吧不要回来了
于是转身过关的一瞬间他听见女朋友撕心裂肺一样的哭声
他说这一辈子都不会忘记的

我说你回头了么
他喝了一大口纯的vodaka
轻声说，如果那一天回头，今天他就不会在这里了

他说两年过去了，依然爱着她
只不过她身边已经有了新的面孔
既然给不起未来唯一能做的只有放她自由”

你数过么有多少overseas在过完安检的时候一个人蹲在地上大哭

而我真正佩服的是那些即使泪流成河也不会回头的人

有的时候我觉得我可以回头再看他们一眼
我可以不用那么勇敢

只是于留学生这是必须要做到的

抵达大洋彼岸的时候擦干眼泪
抬头看着天空

一望无垠的天空整个机场在流泪

昨天在路上边吃着三明治耳机里听着王菲的《童》
就疯狂的想我妈对别人来说触手可及的爱对我来说只能靠一根电话线去感受
对于别人都要承担的责任我却缺席那么多次

我不怕考试我不怕无止境的写essay 我不怕三天俩头的搬家我不怕任何歧视质疑的眼光
我怕回到属于我的地方再也没有属于我的东西了
我怕我像断了线的风筝再也回不去......

身同感受？
别在问我为什么不回家了。。。

有一个朋友问了我个问题
“后悔出国不？”
我愣住了。。。。
我没想过这个问题。
因为出国，失去了很多东西，同时我也体验很多新的东西。

我答她，“现在有一丝后悔，可是我知道以后就不会这么想了。”

改编至《校内》

2010-09-06T23:32:00.001+10:00

我

房

见

凌

乱

的程度已经达到了某个境界。

或者我可以这么说：

就算我房进贼，我一定不会发现。

2010-09-05T14:40:00.002+10:00

Bitching around with my girls was fun last night ♥♥
But too bad Susu have to go back to Canberra tonight...gonna miss her so much...

See you end of this year Susu!!
smochiesssssss!!!!

笨蛋，记住

2010-08-31T03:20:00.001+10:00

很多事情我们知道，却假装不知道
因为真相与谎言一样肮脏。

小丑喜欢笑着逗大家。
大家开心笑着，小丑欢乐。
可是小丑是不是真正在笑，只有小丑本身知道。

很多时候我们都假装自己活的很充实。
照片是拍给别人看，内幕只有自己明了。
笑容是给关心自己的人看，眼泪自己在心里流。
不管自欺欺人的功夫多了得，总是抵不过睡前闭上眼睛的那一刻。

还记得，
上一次给你打了电话，你喂了一声，我才明白什么叫欲语泪先流，沉默了半天，

你说了一句，“剪了刘海，很漂亮。”

这一次，
你说：“喂？没有再聊的必要，很晚了，拜拜。”

我明白了⋯⋯没有眼泪的哭泣。

要记住，这个世界你需要学习的还很多，
你还很无知。

2010-08-25T05:26:00.002+10:00

It's gonna be a super hectic week for me.
Promise will update soon!!

p/s XX，加油。

2010 July's sparks

2010-08-20T01:30:00.000+10:00

July's update here!!

Se7en 3 years old's V.I.P party on that night.

Special PhotoBooth in the club on that night :)

@ Friend's event, Tie Me Up..

Thanks Natalie sooooo much ( Girls' secretsss)

O.M.G Eve's Grand Opening

Besides parties..

Geelong BBQ under 5 degree.. We thought we're insane!!! It was super cold, super duper windy and we were just right beside a huge pond!!!

Great Ocean Road during Winter was......
speechless.

Blah and Bye!

2010-08-17T10:33:00.000+10:00

Mom is here with me!!!
I don't have the time to stick my butt on the chair for this.
Will be back in days time I guess :)

It's been awhile for me to say hi to 'relief'...

Hi.... :)
I feel great that I'm back to the old Jackie, but a smart one.

2010-08-09T00:11:00.005+10:00

haha. What planet does she come from seriously?

With all due respect, I call you JieJie.
With all due respect, I smile when I talk to you.
With no respect, fuck back to your own planet, bitch!

Indignation ain't cool

我被逼着明白这一切。。

2010-08-06T01:07:00.003+10:00

现在知道了，
底牌不能这么快亮出来，就算一手好牌，你也得等好时机。
就算给你个同花顺，没手段，没心机，你只配四个字［一败涂地］
努力学习铁定行？？我呸！
出错牌，输了，没关系，前面还有很多牌局等着你。
有过教训，耍个手段，就算输了，也输得漂亮。
不同牌局，不同手段。
记得，面具很重要。

在这个世界上
各种客套话，听了就算
放个心下去，你就输了。

认真你就输了。

一个一个教训会接踵而来。
跌倒了，告诉自己没关系，再爬起来。
昂起头面对成千上万的教训。
别怕，它们对你以后很有用。

我现在知道，
永远不可能只靠耳朵来发现
这个世界有多么现实，多残酷
若自己没经历过，永远都不会发现人类的面具可以这么恐怖。

我多么渴望
我可以说：“我当年也和你一样，何必呢？”

牌局开始了，就没有退路，
不想面对？？不可能。。
因为这就是现实
最终，你一定得面对。

几年后，就由我来告诉你
“当年我也和你一样，何必呢？你看我现在，每一场牌局，都赢得多漂亮。
没关系，我也有过遍体鳞伤的时候，多得数不清。
当年，我二十岁。”

认真
你就输了

有个朋友。。

2010-08-04T15:30:00.000+10:00

我有一个朋友。她总是在我身边，不断告诉我最丑陋的真相。都没人敢告诉我，唯独她。
不管真相有多难听，多难接受，她都会劈里啪啦,以为我是聋的，一直在我耳边讲。

她从来不会说，“我现在做这些都是为你好，所以你要珍惜，我是为你好。”
她不会说。

刚刚认识她的时候，心里总觉得怪怪的，这个女生怎么这么讨厌我，小小的心灵慢慢被她摧毁掉。

就有一天，你会懂，她都是为我好。
她依旧嘴贱，总不夸你，只会狂批评，可是你就知道，她只是嘴贱。

两个晚上没事做溜出去，不管疯不疯，还是无聊的，她都不会拒绝。

贤妻良母为我准备了两天的爱心晚餐，准备了我一天六餐的食量。
我一晚八片面包把她给吓坏了。

她总是在我不开心的时候，播一些乱七八糟的歌让我听。
我虽然嘴说歌很难听，可是心情真的有好转。

又有一次我不开心。她没播音乐，只是唱了首歌。
虽然没有什么感动的歌词，歌曲还是有点乱七八糟，可是我觉得很好听 :)

感动的话我不怎么会说，还怕你听了会起鸡皮疙瘩。
谢谢你，老 Faye。

Please call me next time when I'm bored.

2010-08-03T19:48:00.001+10:00

Got a call from a 'Blocked' number when I was doing my assignments, as dull as dishwasher......

" Hey Jackie. This is James and how you doing? "

"It's good. ....???"

" Okay.. so this is calling from the department of immigration. I believe that you would have to come to my office tomorrow. "

"Ohh! okay... What's wrong?"

"We found out there's something wrong with your VISA. Please remember to bring your Passport along tomorrow."

"Can you let me know is there anything serious?"

"Ohhh... Unfortunately I can't do that due to the telephone recording laws. Nevermind, we will figure it out tomorrow."

"ohh okay.. I'll see you tomorrow then" * shit! nightmares tonight!!!!!!! *

"Jackie, this is very important for you international student. I have to talk to you.."

"Okay........."

"So......Jackie, how would you feel if I tell you I'm just kidding..?"

"What the FUCK?!?"

"GOTCHA!!"

Fui!! I damn awake now weyyyyy!!

" hahahahaha, Jackie, are you seriously illegal to stay in Melbourne? LOL"

2010-07-31T18:47:00.000+10:00

Walk away...

walk away...

walk away.....

YES I DID IT!!!!

25th July 2010

2010-07-25T14:09:00.005+10:00

I didn't want to wake up, I wanted to stay in the dream so badly.
It was so peaceful.
It was full of hope.
He was there with me, I can tell......

This isn't the first time already, I know he would show up again, in my dream only.
and yes, she was there too. In my dream, she is always there, we're so close to each other like we always used to.

Altho' I forgot my dream once I woke up, but Im sure, they were there this morning.

停

2010-07-23T14:47:00.000+10:00

爱你爱得多忐忑
想想你似乎也总不晓得

爱你爱得多苦涩
却没想过到底值不值得
当你就这样说不要了
我突然明白了游戏里的角色

你要你的快乐
你选择你的选择
我只是个陪你疯了一场
短暂狂欢的过客

你是绝对自由的
我只能在你离开后发现
你从来不是我的

你说，“就好像歌词一样。。。就一模一样。。”

我看着你，笑得无比灿烂，笑得见牙不见眼。而你却一脸从来没有过的严肃，说道：“别笑，我现在很认真。”

大哥，不笑你要我怎样？抱着你双腿哭死掉？能笑成这样，我都想写个［服］字给自己，只差没跪。不清楚我是想要掩盖尴尬的气氛，还是在嘲笑自己。。

可是很确定，我不是真心的在笑，就只觉得这应该是我应该给的最好回应。

我并不奢求在你那里找到幸福
也不敢想你会有什么付出

只是想，既然做了决定我就义无反顾
可笑的是，你却连一个让我义无反顾的机会都不给我。

不会忘记你说的那句。。 “掴我掌啊，我任你掴。。。。掴啊！”

=.=神经病！

告诉自己让自己离开你
告诉自己绝对不行掉眼泪

很多事情，都是有界限的
很多时候，再坚强的人都是会累的。

我不是真的傻瓜，只是曾经为你心甘情愿。
而现在，我最终还是找到一个方式，让自己退出这不公平的游戏了。

怪你吗？不怪你，谁都不怪，谁也怪不了。

你们你们你们你们，不要读了就猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜猜

When I was twenty...

2010-07-22T17:56:00.001+10:00

那一年我二十岁

这一句都快变成我口头禅了。
不管我做什么，两年后回想起我二十岁那一年的疯狂岁月。。。。。

所谓［浪子回头］

我呸！

没关系，就如我说的那一年我二十岁。
很庆幸，我二十岁，遇尽人渣，也遇着了知心的朋友们。谢谢你们。

这个blog就快列为废网了，不行！！我得把你救回来啊毛秘书！
别说我只忙这混，我也上课，okay~~

Faye小姐给我弄了碗乌冬面。

前阵子吃坏肚子，又吐又泻，连续躺在床上两天，完全爬不起床，连上个厕所也都脚软。。

就是被这个害惨的！！！

除了盘蔬菜，全都是辣的，并且还是麻麻麻麻麻辣，妈呀，我晕@.@

我曾经多喜爱的水煮鱼啊～～

最爱吃食物，现在变成我最害怕的字眼，你说可悲不，唉～

哟！钻个洞！

白白！！

2010-07-20T11:49:00.000+10:00

It's so fluffy IM GONNA DIE!!!!!

Hashbrown is love

2010-07-07T18:51:00.002+10:00

It was a bright sunshiny morning ,I had McD breakfast's hashbrown........ it was ♥
It gives me strength.. =D

I'm not quite sure if things are getting better, just stick with what I'm doing is the whole point I ASSUME.
I believe in myself.
Of course things are completely, utterly not going like what I was expecting, but I know I can do it. :)

Well, the fact is, I was replaced. :)

宽容，也纵容。

2010-07-06T02:30:00.002+10:00

混在这个世界里，发现，你是最好的。

那个会在大街上蹲下为我系鞋带，做我喜欢做的事，叫我宝贝。。
那个让我长大的人，

谢谢你。
我想念你了。

才发现，你真的把我宠坏了。
我可以再遇到像你一样的男孩吗？

2nd July Se7en, again.

2010-07-05T01:14:00.001+10:00

Se7en, every Friday....
I had fun tho' on last Friday.

Having presentation tomorrow!! So fast gotta present my assignment already on the 2nd day of the new semester!!

Don't care, blog first.

Ok be fast!

This is Chloe. As usual, she came to my place and get ready, now you know why my room is always in a mess after Friday's night. All thanks to her and i think I need to get her a wardrobe to put in my room, as she always MUST leave her things at my place, EVERYTIME, and know what, I don't understand why she always doesn't wanna collect them back.

" Eh, all your stuffs, take it back lerrrrr.."

"ohh like that la nowwww, cannot put here wan is it? so 'babi' laaaaa"

Seriously, kick her ass lor!

She is so tweety bird here.

The theme of that night, White.
It was so freaking cold on that night, these girls are wearing their jacket.

Easther and Brandon, the kisiao, who always say he looks like 吴彦祖.

LOL!!

Brandon the 吴彦祖 complained that he looks chubby in that photo, so he requested to take another one, which is......

another one.

and another one.

I went washroom for few mins, and my friends started to camwhore with my camera.

Everyone kept asking for my specs on that night.

And, I remember I went back home without my specs.
Don't know mana specs saya dah pergi!!

Okay! Have to go back to my work dy!!
Good luck Jackie Khoh.

Ma list!

2010-07-04T16:56:00.003+10:00

Jackie's must-to-do-list-but-she-thinks-she-will-fail list.

First,
clean my after-world-war-Ⅲ room. This happens ALWAYS after Friday night, big thanks to Chloe Chong who has being sucha great helper.

Second,
stick my butt in front of the lappie and start doing my assignments for more than 5 hours please.

Third,
stay at my own house for more than 6 hours for my own sake.

Forth,
drink more water, not alcohol.

Fifth,
throw the habit of eating like a dinosaur during assignment's period.

Good luck Jackie Khoh.

18th/25th June Se7en

2010-06-29T15:52:00.002+10:00

Photo post again..
Forgive me.....

Newbies in the group, Cyndy, the one who standing at the left. She's here to visit her BF :)
Suanne, blue shirt, a dancer from my crew. HOHOHO..

Was celebrating NIC's birthday.

Spot my Ed Hardy IPhone cover?? teehee ^^

Auburn KIA

I don't drink in club, as you can see I'm busy giving salt to the others.

still giving..

Still giving..

Ended up...

xxxxxxxxxxx

After-exam party on last friday. It was really packed on that day.
Everyone is FREE!!

The emo one.

I said its a photo post.

byebye.

Toy Story 3 tonight!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

2010-06-26T14:32:00.002+10:00

Bye Bye my hair extension :)

2010-06-23T11:49:00.001+10:00

一个陪你疯了一场短暂狂欢的过客

JUNE SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2010-06-23T11:09:00.000+10:00

Jackie Khoh, are you sure you can handle what had happened in this month?
I suppose?

Remember, don't simply trust people around, or else you will get hurt easily.

Don't trust!! Don't trust this sin city.

Melbourne is a sin city.

S.C.A.N.D.L.E. ....... v e r y

Well, this proves Im growing up. These are what I have to go thro' I suppose.
Good lessons for me , just that they are a bit too harsh, and I experienced more than the others who are at the same age with me.
It's okay, I'm Jackie Khoh. Nothing can pull me down.

Peace???

PEACE LA!

what the fuck?

2010-06-23T10:47:00.000+10:00

"I am a man who needs sex regularly"

WTF.

"I have a few on my list is just that you are not one of them anymore as you don't fit my criteria"

WTF.

"You are attractive you look lovely, but in a relationship , there is more than just that sometimes"

WTF.

"I need a woman and a fucking machine, is normal if human being need sex"

WTF

"When you are ready you still can look for me"

Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK?

11th June Se7en. Letting go.

2010-06-19T17:20:00.000+10:00

11th June Se7en's outfit, Cotton On $2 top...HOHOHOHOHO
I forgot to cut the price tag of my top, lucky! really luckily Chloe saw it, otherwise everyone will laugh their arse off!

I very lazy to type, so look at the photos k? :)

were eating chips at the dance floor..

Only few of us went there during exam period. yeng!!

xxxxxxxxx

Karaoke with the bunch :)

k la... the end.
byebye

very very very very lazy.

18th June Se7en. The moment I woke up.

2010-06-19T15:00:00.002+10:00

Well, last night was crazy!
Everyone drank like the alcohol was all FREE the whole night!
Almost everyone KO-ed and got kicked out by the bouncer from the club..
hoho hilarious la seriously. And plus I need to take care one of my
girl friend who was already so drunk in the toilet
and got screwed by the other girls for occupying it for so damn long.
Kena diu in the end :'( hohohohohoho

owh ! Did I mention that I was the only sober???????

*proud*

Ahem, well I saw something with my very own pair of eyes last night, only I realized how idiot I was for not listening to my friends. Okay, I was a little bit upset at first, but I told myself ," Jackie, one more last chance, try and leave with no regret."
Damn shit I tried and got "rejected"...hoho very good.

..
..
..
..
..

I shouldn't have taken care of you last night when you got kicked out from the club..
I should just let you DIE THERE!
Anyhow, I'm glad I rejected your bloody request in the end and left.

So..... The End.

Photos are all in my friend's camera. hoho..don't need to wait for too long cause she is a very efficient uploader, so photos coming up soon :) But too bad I ma very lazy blogger.

byebye!

2010-06-18T15:32:00.001+10:00

想问你，和我在一起已经不快乐了，那离开我之后，你有比较快乐吗？

我真的。。。。

2010-06-16T21:50:00.002+10:00

别怪我不够了解你，我只可以以一个朋友的身份站在你身边。
很多事，我只可以微微地对你笑着。
有些事，我只能在旁边轻轻叹气。
有时，我没说出口，可是心里在为你祈祷。
每一次，都不敢奢求，不敢期待。

别怪我对你冷淡，其实我在保护自己。
别人不做绝对胜过我做很多很多。
看见你的时候，我会掉转眼光，假装看你不见，却在心中希望听见你叫我的声音。
打招呼的时候很淡定，心里却涌起深深的惋惜。

最近你不停出现在梦里，醒来只能恨自己，怎么那么不争气。

我可以笑着听你们的关系，可是不能笑着听你们的故事。

我学会了，
不是眼泪就可以挽回失去的，
不是善良就可以受到庇佑。
所以，不要那么轻易的就心软。

2010-06-13T20:39:00.001+10:00

Been staying up late for the whole week, as if I need to prepare my exam, as if I have million assignments...
Friends busy doing revision, me busy kecoh kecoh.
Friends sleep, I sleep, they don't sleep, I don't sleep.

Friday night's photo, check my cracked lips, super super dry.
puffy eyes, check!
pale face, check!

ohhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~

xxxxxxxxxxxx

come come, show you guys something cute ^^

《照片摘自校内》

shoooooo cute!!!!

things that make me smile.

2010-06-11T01:58:00.002+10:00

You know what makes me smile?
In fact, you don't need to sacrifice anything for me,
don't need to buy me anything...

I just need something like this...

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

A status you've tagged me in.

A really short sentence on my wall.

I stunned when I read the comment which my brother sent me
What first came in my mind was , "errr....is he okay? maybe he is emo-ing right now, that's why would say such thing to me..."

I read through the comments over and over again. *altho' it's not long*, I had this flashback and my stomach turned over. It was really.....weird. or maybe I shouldn't say weird, honestly it was awesome.. too awesome for me.
For your information, my brother is a really shy boy who has never never never expressed his feelings like this. He wouldn't even apologize last time when he said something really bad to me.* don't get me wrong, i know him well, he is a good boy... * Apart from this, I felt like he didn't wanna talk to me in SKYPE before, even sometimes my parents need to force him to talk to me, then he would act like, " I've got nothing to say lerrrr....say what??? ohh hello.....nothing to say lerrrrr..... k la...byebye.."

My bro, I love you too.
" Nevermind, you still have me =) " you sent me this after u knew what had happened to me and Kx.

Thanks, my lil bro.

Mei mei, i love you too la k? LOL
*sound so cheeeeesy!*

Ahem, here is another story. My lil sister's story. So yesterday when I was browsing facebook, an unknown name popped up at the facebook chat.

This is the hilarious convo.. LOL

其实，我很想答，
“当然啦，她姐姐jackiekhoh这样美，妹妹多人喜欢不出奇啊～～～”

Ohhhhhhhhh....so....... this is what kids are doing these days.

Besides all that.....

24/7 street fighters

IKEA meatballs, he said to me before, " try IKEA meatball, they make you happy, babe. "

Pancake Parlour

Chloe and auburn kia.

Chloe, Elaine. :)

Camwhore..

hmm.. Thanks for all the lovely messages, all my dear friends.
子嘉，没有想过你会写我这么长一个message，很意外。谢谢你
和我分享你的故事。:)
be happy k? 真的很感激。

Sorry for not replying some of the messages and comments.
It doesn't mean I dont care or whatever, I do care, and I was really touched when I received those messages from you people. Those lovely messages really help alot.

Thanks a lot.

byebye!!!

笨蛋，要记得。

2010-06-10T03:15:00.000+10:00

笨蛋，不是所有人都真心付出，不要那么不吝啬的给予。
笨蛋，不是乞求就可以得到。

所以，不要那么没尊严的活着。

我知道，不是我做的不够好，
我知道，不是我没努力。

看，虽然没有化妆，我还笑得很甜。
告诉自己，不管什么事，重要是，我知道自己在做什么，不后悔。

五年后，我不会忘记，那一年我二十岁。

exam exam exam....awww...i dont have any.

2010-06-06T22:33:00.000+10:00

okay.. no need to say anything.. I know..i always know..

Everyone is soooo busy preparing their exam, but me the only one sooooo free....
I don't have any exam..how?????????
Can you sense my reluctance?? sighh..im so free.....how ar??? LOL

Anyhow, GOOD LUCK EVERYONE...!!!!! DONT ALWAYS TAKE MCD BREAKFAST AT 5AM, not good for your health, so spare me hashbrown ♥ ♥

Here's a tip for you guys.

When you are tired of studying, memorizing those awful notes,

easy!! jog on one place luuu, no need to get the jogging in-place station.
run as crazy as you can, turn out you 90% will laugh out loud at yourself ,wondering why you're being so kixiao and believe what Jackie Khoh's word. LOL

Next, look at the mirror,
" [whoever, *yourself*], you are so pretty ,*smileeee* "
say this to yourself, proudly.

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I admit, I always do this.
And it works.

xxxxxx

Im still trying to digest what had happened recently. :) so far so good

xxxxxx

Winter Break is coming..honestly I already had it all planned. Great ocean road, Phillip Island, here and there, everywhere. What a shame that I've been staying here for almost 2 years and never been to these places..woohoo! I just nod nod shake shake my head and stare in all innocence when people ask me about how fun these places are.

:) friends, im not going back to Malaysia for holiday, gonna stay here..enjoy my LIFE!!!

*dont hiam, camwhore with photobooth, casually.

byebye..
Remember! don't get stressed ! go jogging!!!

Jackie's May 2010

2010-06-05T00:34:00.003+10:00

Photo post here. Photos will tell what I've been doing all this while...
I'm touched when I saw all the friends' SMS and comments..

Comment from my bro ," Jie, you still have me =)"
omg sei yeh lei arr, grow up dy worrrr!! LOL thanks la!!!! hugggggggggggg

and a big hug for my friends tooo!!

ahem!!

ready?? GO! *so lame*

Me bumped into Kim in Seven, miss her so much :(

Suanne, new member in our dance crew :)
I was the only Malaysian in the crew before she join us!! hooray!

Before dinner with Faye, camwhore camwhore! ^^

Faye warned me not to upload this before... but I uploaded it 'accidentally'..

Faye, I love you...

Spicy shi-chuan steamboat.. real spicy!

This!! I bet Malaysian tak tau apa ni..
this is sedap!! sliiirpp!!!

Seven again, POLO-T night.. that's Easter and Chloe..
seriously, my 'round' stomach...sigh..

Kenny's birthday in Auburn house. The way we drink was crazayy!!!!

Girlssss..

All the guys gotta put make up on that night..
cant really see from this photos :(

2 lan-yeng. LOL

Another drinking session... *faint*

YC's birthday..

Nicholas.. his birthday is coming.... gonna celebrate after everyone's exam is finished.
phewwww....drink again =.=

Me not eating alone in the city anymoreeeeeeeee... so fun to have dinner all together..

Sin Yee....haha.... sho' cute here..LOL

Bought YC cupcakes..

YC birthday-marathon la...LOL

Rennee.. she is back in Malaysia already.. gonna miss her so much :(
take care, Rennee...

This is why I need to makan bubur.

Faye said she looks sooooooooooo pretty here... ahem!

As you can see, I have new friends, LOTSSSS OF new friends.
I'm doing good.. :) nahh! smiley face for you all..

byebye!!

一个人静静地坐在那，思念朋友，回忆往事，然后傻笑。

对我来说，你不是过客。在我心中，你永远都会占有个位置。

2010-06-03T20:25:00.001+10:00

和妈妈通完电话后，眼泪就没停过。
妈妈一看我的脸，就问：”怎么啦？被人欺负啦？”
我跟我自己说，要坚强，别让妈担心，答道：“没有啊～只是有点累。。”

“回家吧。。。”
”没关系，我白痴来的，很快没事。“

忍住眼泪通完电话。一挂我白痴眼泪停不下来。
刚从妈妈口中得知原来你受妈妈肯定了，可是。。。你离开了。
望一望房间四周，四幅墙都贴满我们的和照，你我给对方留的字条，许多充满回忆的小东西。我会把这些属于我们的东西统统藏起来，可能哪天半夜梦醒又偷偷把它们拿出来摆回原位。

想看，却不敢触碰。

很少在这里宣泄我真正的感受，还有我发生些什么事，都很少PO上来。虽说这时我个人网页，可是还是有人会看到。

jackie，谨只一次，让你放肆一下:)
这篇会很长，无心读的可以离开。

。。
。。
。。
。。

终于，我放手了。想着，有时候执着是一种负担，放弃是一种解脱呢。
潇洒吧？不，其实我一点都不。
心里的疼痛一次又一次地折磨着你，
于是你终归累了，真的累了，
你终于狠下心要放弃了。

你说［付出了那么多，到头来却只是让彼此都不快乐。。虽然依旧舍不得。］

下午读了一篇文章，

［你知道你必须放下。
因为未来的路还很长。而他给不了你你要的幸福
但是你还是会舍不得
因为你不知道
以后还能不能遇见一个人，能让你像现在爱他一样疯狂而执着地爱着那个人
能不能像喜欢他一样用尽全力.不求回报地喜欢那个人
...
你只知道，他是你心里一道无法愈合的伤口
你无法忘记，只是因为他曾经让你那么深刻地爱过、伤过、痛过
于是。
你把他埋在心里的一个角落
深深地、深深地
怕一不小心触及，会引来刺骨的疼痛
然后你笑着对他说：
[对不起。亲爱的我不爱你了。] ］

朋友们都羡慕我们两个虽然分隔那么远，可是感情还是那么要好。
周围的朋友一个一个因为远距离而分手，我们就吸取别人的教训，因此更珍惜对方。
朋友们逐渐来问我怎么解决远距离感情纠纷的时候，我们就对这一段感情越有信心。

从一开始的互不熟悉，到如今的彼此了解，
从一开始浅薄的想念，到如今深深的眷恋，
从最初很在意在你面前的形象，到现在的毫无顾忌，
从当初的不知道该怎么爱你，到现在不知道该如何分离。

这一路走来，我们经历很多，付出也很多。

谢谢你，教会了那么多东西。
谢谢你，曾经来到我的世界。
谢谢你，曾经那么相信着我，一直都在坚持不放弃。
谢谢你，给我这么好的回忆。
谢谢你，一次又一次地包容我，总在我发完小姐脾气后紧紧抱着我。
谢谢你，所为我做过的一切的一切。

我不会忘记，曾经有那么一个人这么为了我而牺牲自己。
我不会忘记，我出国前，你紧紧抱着我，对我说过的每一句话。
我们聚少离多，我们在一起的每一刻，我都有发现不管在哪里什么时候，你都紧紧牵着我的手。

我记得你说过，你不是喜欢我化好妆，漂漂亮亮出门的那一刻，而是我在吃饱饭后，手指在牙缝里拉出一根菜渣的那一刻，你也喜欢我为了一根菜渣，手指叼在嘴巴里几个小时，就为了可以拉出来后，吃进肚子里。
你电脑里储存我的相片中，100 张里有99 张是我翻眼扮鬼脸的照片。

在你眼里，所有我觉得美中不足的地方，都是你觉得最美的地方。所有我觉得见不得人的模样，都是你觉得最可爱的模样。

谢谢你，黄国祥。

有缘再见。祝你快乐，要过得很快乐。
对我来说，你不是过客。在我心中，你永远都会占有个位置。

去年第一次学会edit video，就做了一个关于我们的video。一想起你看到这个video时的反应，我都很想笑。

朋友们，放心！我会没事的。我是一个很乐观的家伙。对，当然我偶尔也会emo一下，可是回复状态的速度可是不输人的哦。天生的笨蛋就有这种天腻！
要记得，“你笑，全世界跟着你笑。你哭，全世界只有你一个人哭。”

即将出国念书，必须和自己喜欢的人分隔两地的朋友，对不起似乎让你们的希望破灭了。这里要告诉你们，有人说，异地恋最怕的不是变心，而是慢慢的不知道怎么了感情就不在了。可是那有什么关系呢。我说，如果慢慢的感情不在了，那就重新开始重新培养吧，直到彼此在一次重新爱上对方为止。决不放弃。我知道我没资格讲这一番话，可是好好想一想，很有用。

再一次强调，我没事。
只需给我一点时间 :) hello～～～我才二十呐～～～～

Am i Emo-ing??

2010-06-02T14:22:00.003+10:00

it's gonna be alright.
Everything is gonna be alright.

Jackie, You have to be ok.
dont fall.
dont fall
dont fall
dont fall

dont cry, you're always tough.
be strong, be smart.

take a deep breath, Jackie.....
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no..i still don't feel any better.
Can someone please bring me to somewhere I can shout out loud like crazy..

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Besides ".........................." , still ".........................."

Im not emo.
Im tough, I cannot be like this.